So it's been quite a long while since I've published anything. I read other blogs everyday and feel envious of how confident those bloggers seem to be. Envious of how their children have been "captured" in their blogs and they will be able to remember all the little details of their little one's life. I envision their lives through their words and pictures and strive to be the kind of mothers they are. Then I stop and look at my little one and realize, that I am a good mother too. I just do my mothering differently. I may not be as crafty as some of the bloggers I read, but that doesn't make me a bad mother, because I still sit and color with my little girl. I may not be home with her all day, everyday, but that doesn't make me a bad mother, because I still love my daughter and in doing so I work to provide for her and at the end of the day, I know she still loves me. I may not be as good a cook as some of the bloggers I read, but that doesn't make me a bad mother because she still has meals and snacks and she is a healthy little girl. I may not be able to blog as often and write or type out every little memory as much as other bloggers, I still remember and cherish and thrive on every little detail in my head.
However, I do strive to constantly improve how I am as a mother and I will always be that way. Because no matter what, my child(ren) will always deserve the best that I can give. For that reason, over the next couple months, I really want to concentrate on trying to write more often and keep a better record of Delaney's childhood. She really amazes me everyday with all the things she knows and does. I want to remember those moments more vividly later on in her life, and since I know that at some point my mind may fail me, I want to have somewhere I can go to remember every little detail the way it happened.
So either later today or sometime tomorrow, I will start my records of her childhood as close to my last post as I can possibly get, and will keep working my way to present day as much as possible. So while I'm working my way through the last 6 months, bear with me.
